u r not alone

u r not alone

im having problems also
problems which compared to u, u still can curve a smile on ur face, where i should be worried and take away the "playful" thoughts in my mind.

sometimes, i feel myself wasting alot of time...slipped away some opportunity.
but, i keep telling myself, there are many more to come....

ya...im quite good in being optimist in this...
but other than this, i'm pessimist


i didnt want u to thk that im not giving positive respond to u...
but everytime when u told me bout ur problem, i really feel, there's nothing to be worried about
ur opportunity is very obvious...ur future is very bright


its true

maybe becz im not in ur shoes, im jz using a third party identity to look at ur problems

well, people tend to worried much, and think much

so, after this period, i hope u will feel better...alot better

im not good in comforting people, im sorry if my words offended u.

goodnite

Im Back~

please...i didnt go anywhere...(i mean didnt go for trip or vacation la)

i've abandoned my blog for so longggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg


ok...was busy with thesis-writing

hand up my second-draft and hopefully nothing much i need to change or add...

but i noe i sure need to add something...my abstract+table of content+appendix

watever for now~


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went yam cha with Penny and Yinng on Friday nite
we switched from Kitchen Recipe to Restaurant DG (mamak)
aih...Kitchen Recipe is cannot lor....the environment (too transparent + bright), the foods (too normal), the drinks (normal plus expensive plus the glass is small pls~)

conclusion, we rather walked to Restaurant DG which is few metres away ...

and three of us ordered this~~~~

~recommended by Penny~

i dont fancy tea or milk tea or coffee .....
but this....i dunno the name of the drink ...is NICE~ the taste is unique...
is like teh tarik but got cendol taste....hm....
and Yinng very excited to c the black colour layer at the bottom of the glass...(=.=)

chatted alot with them and heard alot of funny stories from both Yinng and Penny
nice catching up with them about their working life



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my cousin sis's baby girl~

cute!!!

very cute!!!!!

but oso very bising!!!
and she very notty at nite!!!
why?
i was busy rushing my thesis-writing last week every nite...(as im working in the morning till evening). but she.....she jao purposely bising at nite...keep talk in her baby language...
then nvm...she cried sometimes...(lau gai). but hor, when i off the lights, she will be quiet and sleep ............................

ok, she sleeps in my room..and i need lights to do my thesis, cz if no lights, pls..eyes will pain and hard to see....and she oni sleeps when lights off...(babi betul)

but anyway, i still very loves her! and loves to pinch her cheeks...WAHAHAAHHAHAH

anyway, she went back to her home in Johor this evening.. *sigh*
miss her bising-ness


Miss u, Li ying~

is it true that when someone is not happy, or down, whatever he/she thinks will be negative?

all i know is i have millions of negative thoughts in my mind now

what if.....is it......why.....how come........


i will keep asking myself .......


whether the problem exist or not...



*******
why it is always me? there are four siblings in the house, and because i'm the eldest, i need to take it?

do any of them know, i'm stress in the room? stressing over my own things and problems?
do they realised i spent most of my time at home in my own room instead of living room?
do they know what am i doing in the room?

i know everyone got their own problems ....
im not excluded to have some....

sometimes,.....i really feel, its good to be alone in a space, a space where no other human exist.


i dont have a main point here, i know.

I just dont want to bring the matters here.

my blog should be a happy wan.

i hope they will understand me.

dont make me feel, i doesnt belongs to here.


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"Crazy dog"

WAHAHAHAH.....this post is totally blog on behalf of my fren, Emily.

the first 2 weeks (if im not mistaken) she back to Sabah, she complained to me about this "crazy dog", that attacks her. Mind here, i absolutely not talking about real dog...but a ...sorry, i hardly tell he is a guy or girl (opss..i type "he" hor?....)

Pls...he is not a guy as in the things he had done that caused my fren in troubles plus lost innocent moneys
and yet he is not a girl cz he TAK LAYAK!!!!!! NOT QUALIFIED~!

deng~~~~~

the 1st case***************

He dunwan to gv deposit back to my fren. he wanted to "telan" my fren's deposit (house rent deposit). Reason given is my fren didnt manage to find people to move in the room she rented. ANd, he has found his fren to move into the room. So, as a result, my fren dont deserves the deposit, but he deserves it. Pls, my fren did tried to find people to move in by sticking notices every part of UCSI. This kind of thing, have to depends wan rite? If got people finding room, sure will wan to move in lor..if no then how? Makan-sendiri (pay the room rental lor until got people move in). So, this dog, said he found his fren who interested to move in. FREN. So, is his fren. Is not an unknown student in UCSI, who he suddenly go and approached and asked him to move in rite? BUT, he said he found people to move in, so the deposit that my fren should receive have to give him. WAT?!?!........like tat oso wan to kira~ i can say if is my bf, he sure wont go and kira those "sap sui" money! this is wat we called MAN *walking away*
plus, they were housemate before. Why want to make the situation like tat?

okay, if u thk...he dont deserve me to caLL him as "crazy dog" becz of this...nevermind~



************2nd case*******************

yala..he tak habis-habis got problems with money wan.
He...went and complained to agent behind my fren that my fren spoilt the table...
Please, dog, behave! My fren has moved back to Sabah for...now 4weeks edy.
In this 4weeks, my fren's soul fly back to Cheras, to the house and spoil the table izzit?!
He called and told my fren the table is spoilt, and she needs to pay RM100 for it.
PLEASE...another fren of mine, who moved in the same house said previously the table was okay...until the dog's fren moved in...then dunno when spoilt edy. HARLO~~?~?~~?
he want to frame people oso frame it nicely la....use brain to think la...
and the agent oso sama....just listen to one party and make assumption that my fren spoilt it. *clap*...


this kind of guy is what i assumed as no "birdy". I saw him once before, when i went to Emily's house to make chocolate. That moment, i edy can feel this guy is not any good "thing". He can just go and f*** himself...(i noe..im rude...but to this kind of people, nonit polite ok)


P/S : Emily, dont sad pls...he will got his balasan one day!


Ta~

I'm sad pls~!!!!!

*sobbing*

pls...today i off (Manager gv me two days off)
no..not the "off" thing that made me sad..

im sad because the file is not EDITTED!!!!!

what? dont understand?

ok...the story begins this morning....

I went to scared him early in the morning (8.10am). He still soundly sleeping. This time i succeed becz previously, he woke up and looked at me before i managed to "Boo!!" him...pls~
But he seems like doesnt matter cz he turn around and continue sleep *wat the*
of cz later on i keep shake his shoulder and press his eyes and cucuk his body with my fingers just to wake him up. So, he woke up, and we went to eat breakfast in a nearby mamak stall.

We came home and start our "work". Thesis writing. He got his thesis writing. I got my thesis writing. And we both got our own laptop on the dining table (downstairs). I hardly concentrate on my thesis writing until i found some information that i thk suitable for my thesis. and there i began to type and type and type. But of cz in between, i stop and watch the drama i paused yesterday nite. and so watch tv (cant blame me wor..the tv is just infront of me =.=)
so, i thk i wrote about a page with few paragraphs and editted some spelling errors, numbering errors and table errors.

In the morning, he helped me to re-install my Microsoft Office 2007 becz my desktop keep pop out the "not genuine copy" thingy which irritated me alot. However, after he installed it, the stupid box still pop out. So, i dont care it for a while and do my thesis. In the late afternoon (around 4.30pm) when i stop my thesis writing to grab some chocolate (although in between eat alot chocolate edy), he suggested to re-install my Microsoft Office 2007 again. See-ing him got the "heart" to solve my problem, i gave the laptop to him again. By the way, before that, my laptop hang-ed and i terus press the off button and then i on it back. I believe, the files sure got backup in the Microsoft Word wan...cz its not 1st time edy.

While he busy with my laptop, i used his laptop to chat with Gabe. He is very babi. we played Guess songs. I type pin yin of the lyrics of the songs, and he guess. Its so fun until i laughed out loud. My dear constantly asked me what so funny, but i just ignored him and said "nola..very gau siu" ( i noe..i noe...i didnt answer his quest ma....)

so, after he finished with my laptop, i tot of continue on my thesis. I scrolled down to find the page i stop. Very shocking-ly!!! i found that the file was not editted like before! wtf wtf wtf wtf!!!!!!

i thought, it must be my eyes problems...i tried to re-scroll it up and down and slow. Result, NOT EDIITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the page with new info and paragraphs is not there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(before i found this, i was happily playing with him)
after i found this, i started to tears. I MEAN IT... my tears fell down my cheeks like itu paip bocor. and while crying, i ranted to him about the file is not saved and now my informations were gone. not in the file. I was hugging his pillow that time (oh, previously i took his pillow downstairs to put behind my back, so that i can sit comfortable-ly). End up, the pillow is in front of me. and me hugging it and wipe my tears using it too. I even stuffed my face in the pillow. Is damn sad u noe! whole morning till afternoon till late evening works are gone! GONE! GONE! *ROAAARRRRRRRRRRRRR*


he faster take over my laptop and help me check where is the file. He tot i mis-saved it in other files. *wu~wu~wu~*
obviously he cant find the file cz if he found, my title of this post wont be "I'm sad pls", should be "Thank god".
He didnt give up. He tried to locate my file again and again, and wat was i doing? Sitting beside him (he actually standing beside me) and cried out loud and kick-ed my legs to the table's legs (pain lor!!!). I tell u, pls...pls save ur file no matter u thk the computer will auto-save for u. And dont ever thk that, it wont hilang. U see..Im a good example. Before he wan to install my laptop, i told him i want to save into his pendrive. He told me nonit as the file will be there. Now~! whr? where is the file?......................"when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing u~ when you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too"(here i mean my editted file).


I know he was hak-chan by me, cz i cried. I nearly asthma wan i tell u. cried too geng. *ma de*
no one will understand my feelings~~~~ no one will~~ cz no one will be so stupid as me...
and he keep ask me dont cry. the more he said, the more i cried, and the louder pls. and the more he wipe my tears away, the more the tears come out...


ok,...cut the craps bah ~

anyway, i recovered 60% of the losing file by retype and rebuilt sentences and refind information. Luckily the file that i saved references with website is there.

ok...till here then

Ta~

All about him~

this will be a very long post...hope it wont bored people who going to read this....

************FRiday****************


He bought 2 tickets of "Shinjuku Incident" at 6.30pm in Jusco Cheras Selatan. I worked till 5.30pm. Only manage to reach Kajang at 6pm. That is rush for me.. I wanted to go home and take a bath pls. He knows it. and he said its ok. and even asked me dont rush. Take my time. Since he said so, I happily drive home. Saw him parked in front of my house. Very quick i went upstairs, bathed. 6.20pm.. We left my house. and can confirm sure late for the movie. He drove very fast, but safe. and i keep asked him "do u regret for letting me go home and bath?"....He just smiled and said "No le..".. i know he sure got bit mm song me..*hmph*



we late for about 15mins for the movie pls! but we managed to bought 2 hotdogs and 1 coke. WAHAHAHAH...hungry pls~! both of us din take dinner.

Me : *starring at him* u have ur dinner already?
Him : no le...
Me : why wan? u can take dinner jz now before u come to my hse...
Him : i know..but i dont dare to take dinner 1st, coz u havent take ur dinner
Me : i knew it!!!! if u take dinner at home dy, i sure scold u wan....HAHAHAHAHAH....cz i hungry, u no hungry...its unfair~~


ok la..i sounds so "hap pok" ...cis~! but somehow, its true pls...he wanted to watch at 6.30pm. and i sure no time take dinner. he has to teman me to feel the hungry-ness~

~Shinjuku Incident~

pls...this movie is nice!!!! (to me).. and Daniel Wu is so so so so different in this movie!!!!!!
his character is very different compared to his previous movies. The content of the movie is so so so so so so violent~!!! its like watching ghost movie to me cz i've been covering my face and eyes with my jacket *hmph* and i even said "YES" very loud in the cinema when i saw the bad man got chopped *walking away*...


**********Saturday***********

after work, i went home again (cz suppossed to go his house and go watch Too Fast and Furious 4 at 3.45pm) to bath and have my lunch. Since he said i worked and sure tired, he came and picked me up instead of I drive to his house *hehe*

we almost late for the movie becz of accident-caused-traffic-jam in Kajang town. we reached there on time~

~Too Fast and Furious 4~

this movie is also very nice~! i keep "wow~~ wah~~......WAH~~~~.......OMG~~waseh~~~" in the cinema pls~....(sounds so jakun pls~ deng~!)

after movie, we went to Starbucks with his cousin sis +husband.




***********Sunday (today)****************

woke up by his sms at around 10am. Went downstairs to take my breakfast and Dad called. He asked me to go Lowyat now (11.30am) to help him in choosing which desktop to buy. Honestly, i feel like crying that moment. and i did cried after that. why?...it is SUNDAY pls...i planned of drive to find him and do my thesis. Now, i need to drive to Lowyat. with wat??? DAD drove CRV there pls~! i drive Estima izzit?!?!!? that ESTIMA is such a big pig that hard to handle plus hard to park. and most importantly, DAD is very loved that big pig. i dont thk he wants me to drive it all the way to Lowyat. and very pandai, DAD suggested to me to ask my DEAR to fetch me there *clap*. I called him..and nearly burst into tears when explaining to him what happen cz i very "kik sam" ar~ He didnt said much, only responded to me that he will come now. *sobs* feel gam tung pls..faster take bath.



I have to say, if not becz of him, i thk, today my dad wont be able to buy a desktop with only me helping and giving opinion. Im DESKTOP freak pls...I HATE DESKTOP. It so big compared to laptop and its so mafan in choosing which to buy. My dad wanted to buy the desktop which cost 4K plus after that only-wanted-to-gain-more-comission-salesman keep telling him how good is the desktop. Go away lar pls~!!!! stop conning people to buy that when my dad just wanted a desktop for office use. The 4K plus desktop is more to watch movie and play games wan pls~!


He, didnt said much, went to a shop and solved everythg for me. He then, explained to my dad about the desktop he choose. He talks to the man there, and get the man to fix the desktop with parts that we wants. Ya, we didnt buy a full complete set of desktop. The desktop we bought is "mixed" one...watever...dunno how to say la... AND most important, it didnt cost my dad 4K plus, but only 2K plus~ cheap yet its with the good specs.


after that we went to eat in Sushi King. Sushi King ....lose to Sushi Zanmai pls...very LOSE...
hm.....

Thanks to him cz he tried to control my emotions when i nearly got mad by my dad and bro. The dad keep ask and ask me about the desktop thing which i dont know, and that brother.....lazy to comment on him....Im not selling computer, y asked me? go ask the people who sell computer in the shops la.....keep ask me for waT? its not like i work there~!


after bought the desktop and also a fax machine, he helps my Dad to carry the stuffs to the car. Both of us then walked back to Timessquare to the car. Why dont ask the Dad to fetch us there? (Lowyat to Timessquare) That time raining some more. He said its near, dunwan to gv trouble to my Dad and traffic jam. *roarrrrrrrrrrrr*

have no choice but to walked with him to Timessquare, meanwhile angry at him. He then bought Corona (a beer) for me to drink. *So not related~* want me to drunk and stop angry at u izit? cis~

At night, he came to my house and help my Dad to install the Microsoft Office and also antivirus. He even helped us to set up the fax machine.


Sometimes, he can be very good. sometimes, he just make me very angry.

But today, he definitely made me to love him more~


In msn ...

He : hope what i did today did help ur dad to save money
Me : u did help my dad to save money. Thank u~!!
He : nonit to thank. U are not my friend ok. U are my w***. ok.


so touched pls~!~!~!

ok. i promise i will treat him better.

[p/s : PeiXzan, dont angry pls cz i didnt caLL ur cousin for the desktop thing. Its my dad who suddenly went to Lowyat, and suddenly caLLed me, and suddenly asked me to go there to see which desktop to buy. All these happen too sudden edy. deng~...anyway, thank u for giving opinion and trying to help when i asked u bout desktop thing. ]


K la...

Goodnite~

JOLIN蔡依林「妥協」MV

this song is very nice....and sad at the same time...

sometimes, when a relationship comes to a period when sparks are not there anymore....when one of the couple compromise alot....means, there are troubles....

deng~ dunno la..just watch the mv...listen to the lyrics bah~

have a nice day!